I didn’t disappear…

I am very much still here… I am living my life to the very fullest.

I am happier than I have ever been… and always seeking deeper joys.

I am more authentically my self than I have ever been and I’m carving out time for solitude so I can get to know my self better.

I am trading in toxic relationships for healthy ones. I am pruning negative and toxic thoughts for the good and noble ones.

I didn’t disappear. I am very much still here.

I saw this on a friend’s instagram account and had to share because it really spoke to me today:

The Alchemist

One of my favorite books of all time… just going over some of my highlights from previous reads… I think I’m going to read it again once I get through my current reading list cause I just miss it… it’s so full of gems about finding your Personal Legend.  Here are some of my favorite excerpts:

“Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second’s encounter with God and with eternity.”

“..when we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better, too.”

“It is we who nourish the Soul of the World, and the world we live in will be either better or worse, depending on whether we become better or worse. And that’s where the power of love comes in. Because when we love, we always strive to become better than we are.”

Coelho, Paulo. The Alchemist

If you haven’t read it, do… It’s a delight to read and it uplifts the soul.


This week was all about composition and color. I worked on building a palette and exploring compelling composition. It’s a work in progress… but progress is everything! I’m feeling good about what I accomplished this week.

Onward and Upward…  After defining the key colors in my current palette, I invested in Holbein tube paints. So, this coming week I am going to get to know my new paints and continue my work on composition and color. I’m currently creating mini paintings/studies that I will recreate on larger surfaces. I am super excited!

Virtue in rest.

That there is virtue in work is irrefutable.

What is less plainly grasped is that there is virtue in rest.

It is noble, worthy, and dignified to renew your self, to take care of your self, so that you can be the best you.

Today I rest.

First within, then without.

“Make the world within beautiful and opulent and the world without will express and manifest the conditions which you have made within. You will come into a realization of your power to create ideals and these ideals will be projected into the world of effect.”

-Master Key System, Week Seven

Compassion Cards + Energy Paintings

It’s hard to fully move on to a new project when a previous one is unfinished. So, today I devoted a few hours to updating my online portfolio at Essem Studio so that I have some recent content on there. It’s exciting to see the paintings up there and it gets me excited to keep working. Sometime you just have to take a step back.

I’ve included some of my favorite paintings here, but you can check out the whole portfolio of Compassion Cards + Energy Paintings.

working more…

I find myself puzzling over my art during random waking hours and even in my sleep…making mental and physical notes to try different thing to achieve what I see in my mind’s eye…. it’s a constant work in progress.

I’m obsessed.

P.S. Happy Valentine’s Day! ♥


It is as though we want to believe God can create the subatomic structure but is clueless when faced with how to aid or fix our painting, sculpture, writing, film.

Cameron, Julia. The Artist’s Way

Taking the ideas from my head and trying to recreate them on a physical surface with tangible mediums… the age old artists’ challenge. It’s always perfect in my imagination… always striving, ever evolving.

Experimentation & Implementation

These last five weeks, I gave my inner artist a license to have fun painting, and I’ve had a blast making mistakes on purpose, embracing ugly,  discovering new colors, and trying all different kinds of styles in a judgement free way. For me, the creative process has become a series of ebbs and flows between experimentation and implementation. This week, and going forward, I am going to focus on implementing some of the new ideas I picked up during my experimental phase, focus on composition and color, and see where I go from there. When ideas start to feel stale, I will go back to the experimentation phase and start again.

Artist Confession: I personally struggle with overworking my paintings – filling every inch of space on the paper and being impatient and overzealous with adding colors and layers. I am going to focus on incorporating white space, executing simple composition, and achieving pristine colors.

Personal Confession: I don’t think it’s a coincidence that I find myself overworking conversations and relationships, much like I overwork my paintings. So, I am also focusing on letting go of the need to compensate or fill “spaces” in my life. Instead I am going to savor the white spaces – moments of silence and solitude. I am going to improve on the composition of my life by prioritizing the people and things that matter most to me. And, I am going to embrace the pristine color of each moment without muddying it up by doing too much, and drowning it out with distractions.

I enjoyed last week’s experiment in silence so much that I will be incorporating it in my morning writing and painting sessions going forward.

Reset for Success

In our home, Sunday has become our reset day. The hubs and I take shifts spending quality time with our little human one on one, while the other gets some time to do something productive to prepare for the week ahead. This includes cleaning the house, batch cooking for the week, organizing work spaces, reading, and planning. I can not emphasize how crucial this reset day has been to our family success during the week. We eat healthier, stick to our routines and commitments, and have more time and energy to devote to winning at life and work.

Do you afford yourself time to reset? If you could prepare something for the coming week, what would it be? How would it impact your success?

Let me lovingly state, for the record, that I am so grateful for my husband, who does so much toward our weekly family wins! Love you, DH ♥