“Of all the beautiful truths pertaining to the soul which have been restored and brought to light in this age, none is more gladdening or fruitful of divine promise and confidence than this – that man is the master of thought, the moulder of character, and the maker and shaper of condition, environment, and destiny.
As a being of Power, Intelligence, and Love, and the lord of his own thoughts, man holds the key to every situation, and contains within himself that transforming and regenerative agency by which he may make himself what he wills.”
– James Allen, As A Man Thinketh
I’ve been working on this for some months now – being truly mindful of the thoughts that cross my brain. How inconsequential a silly thought might be, it is still a seed with boundless potential. Some are seeds to weeds and others to beautiful flowers and plants and trees. To be selective about which seeds we lay in our fertile mind will determine what grows into our attitude and actions, which in turn give life to our circumstances and environment – and therefore it is of critical importance that we check our thoughts for uprightness. We can not entertain folly and contempt and expect to reap abundance and goodness. It just doesn’t follow the natural law of the universe.
I am working on this every single day… I am a little too apt to judge others and harbor contempt for others’ folly… but these are not the seeds of goodness and light. And, I want the those in my life.
Few things are accidental. Most things are by design. We just have to be aware of it.
“You need a physical space – private, safe, and just for you. When you are in this space, you are not available. I repeat, you are not available. This is your sacred space to be by and with yourself. We all need safe containers. How might you create a safe space that you can spend time in daily? How might you get creative with where it begins and ends? Find this place and make it your own.”
-Elle Luna, The Crossroads of Should and Must
As a work from home mom, the concept of privacy and space is one I have to reacquaint myself with. Nothing is private anymore. So, I get my space at 4:30 in the morning while my family is still sleeping… and I write my morning pages over a cup of cordial tea, and then I paint for an hour… and if there’s time I just sit and watch as the sky changes colors to welcome the new day. Goodness knows, I miss sleeping in till 7 but the solitary haven has been a god send. Where is your space? or if you’re like me, When is your space?
One teeny, tiny five-letter word is all I will seek to accomplish tonight….
I need it…. very much.
Notes to self today: Sorry (not sorry) for the mysterious veil and chaos.
Less talk. More doing.
Surround yourself with people who fan your flames and build you up. Cut out the people who piss on your flames and deflate your dreams. — I am paraphrasing a small social media video from Will Smith circulating around Facebook at the moment.
Getting things done… big things in the works. My biggest project/opportunity to date (in my life)….
A little SCARY.
But mostly, SO DARN EXCITING.
“We do too much watching of our neighbor’s garden, and too little weeding in our own.”
-William George Jordan
I used to spend countless hours every week poring over instagram and pinterest for cool art and emerging artists in the name of research and inspiration but often found that I didn’t feel the better for it. In fact, I felt somehow insufficient and intimidated by those much further along on their artistic journey. Now, I limit my social time… paying less attention to who follows my work, how many likes I get, and I engage only long enough to appreciate the wealth of talent and art in the world. There is a happy medium to find… and I would much rather weed and water my own garden anyway.
Monochrome expressions may seem limiting but they can actually be quite liberating. The self-inflicted constraint of using just one color (in this case umber) pushes us to explore the full tonal range; to be mindful about dilution and water and flow; and makes one focus on the shapes and the movement of the brushes so that the resulting expression isn’t flat.
This morning’s painting was a reflection of my mood… I wasn’t in the brightest of spirits when I painted it, but I was determined to be present. Sometimes being present means embracing the internal shades of umber, making friends with all sides of our self, and letting it flow in a compassionate and gentle way.
That is the beauty of authenticity – to first know, then embrace, and finally to express our self.
On our creative journey,
Jealousy is the angry backseat driver.
S/He may be pointing you in the right direction
but can never be trusted to take the wheel.
Listen to your Jealousy,
Let it show you what your soul is yearning for.
Then sternly tell it to pipe down
and adjust your coordinates as needed.
I am very much still here… I am living my life to the very fullest.
I am happier than I have ever been… and always seeking deeper joys.
I am more authentically my self than I have ever been and I’m carving out time for solitude so I can get to know my self better.
I am trading in toxic relationships for healthy ones. I am pruning negative and toxic thoughts for the good and noble ones.
I didn’t disappear. I am very much still here.
I saw this on a friend’s instagram account and had to share because it really spoke to me today:
This week was all about composition and color. I worked on building a palette and exploring compelling composition. It’s a work in progress… but progress is everything! I’m feeling good about what I accomplished this week.
Onward and Upward… After defining the key colors in my current palette, I invested in Holbein tube paints. So, this coming week I am going to get to know my new paints and continue my work on composition and color. I’m currently creating mini paintings/studies that I will recreate on larger surfaces. I am super excited!
That there is virtue in work is irrefutable.
What is less plainly grasped is that there is virtue in rest.
It is noble, worthy, and dignified to renew your self, to take care of your self, so that you can be the best you.
Today I rest.